Aviza, you are in a webb of confusion. It sounds like you are self projecting the negativity of others about you back onto yourself. You must work on seeing yourself as a person of value. If you have tried psychics and that failed then what about a spiritual counselor? They are out there. There is always good vs. evil in the world going on constantly in the spirit realm or other dimensions. Sometimes those spirits for whatever reasons pull on us in different directions and try to influence how we feel about ourselves. I choose to believe that you and I are of great value, we have the ability to heal, create, grow and well as destroy. The choices are ours. I recommend not giving up because you are of great value. Find a spiritual counselor who will listen to you and give you some wonderful self affirmations that you can read and dwell on to show that you are not about what you do or own, you are about you the one inside. i hope this helps. blessings and tc