It occurred to me earlier today that my mom will never stop dismissing me or what I believe, think or talk about. Why does it matter to me..? I'll never get her love or approval. My sisters get it mostly. My few close friends get it. More importantly, I get it. I don't need to beat my head against the wall another day.

I'm working on forging my thoughts and opinions. I matter. I just am starting to REALLY think that she is not worth the agony I've put myself through.