I take my meds one day at a time. Thinking about long term meds for a person that doesn't even take Tylenol makes me cry and flush them. I use weekly T to help me with this. T doesn't remind me / ask me to take my meds forever but just try to take them until the next time we see each other. T reminds me we're working on better coping skills and they're working on better drugs for us. (T's also on BP meds). He reminds me of the hicups and close calls I've had on meds and reminds me of some of the close calls with my old T. As long as I'm part of their company it's meds or quickly back to IP. They both (t, pdoc) give me days not weeks to deteriorate back down to hospital quality if I'm off meds. I'm considered Heavily medicated.

As far as accepting BP. I haven't but this is the way I see it. My uniqueness has always and will always be a part of me they just call it BP. I refuse to hate any part of who I am so it justs sits there, useless information right now until There's a reason for it.

When I first learned I had BP I cried and cried, thought I was just like my mom and my sisters. I cried as I dropped school once again because stress was to much. I downsized my life, accepted help financially, but need meds, therapy ha, not me. slowly I'm calming down and realizing meds can help without stealing who you are and therapy can be a lifesaver.