Thanks MM

I'm still really angry. Disappointed the talks with him get nowhere. Woke up at 3 and came to work, couldn't stand being in bed next to him. I'm a little hypo, texted staff (only 2 of them left lol to come on in early cuz it's on - they were on board!)

Keep seeing over in my head him telling me last night, "YOU'RE CRAZY! YOU'RE ****ING CRAZY!" circling his hands around his ears like a child would make fun of someone.
Maybe I am crazy, but that's not all I am. My friends and family like me and think I'm fun and kind and a good listener. I have tons of compassion and an open mind. I'm romantic and nurturing, I love with my whole being. He doesn't see this. As my sister says, He doesn't SEE me.

Good news is, I think my kids will move with me where ever I go. i need to wait for June, for employment contract to be done & for youngest to finish 8th grade at the nice school he's at. He says he wants to go anywhere we will be happy together.
My older daughter just talked to me and will move out of state with me! She has been clean off drugs for a year and a half and she is a really wonderful person.
Just talked to my older son & he sounds clean & happy. I don't know if he will come move to where I'm going, but I have a good feeling. Where i'm moving i think i can actually afford to buy a decent house with room for my kids and our dogs & cats.