I wrote so much my browser crashed.

Rest assured your situation is not unique. And not the worst.
There are many of us in jail or institutions. For life.
Millions take meds every day. Worse meds and injections.
I know you care about yourself, not the rest.
But thankfully your condition was caught in time.
All you need to do is follow the protocol
and the condition will be controlled.
Best of lucks.