Aviza. You need some time for YOURSELF! I know it's easy to say but our experience of reality is in our minds, and regardless of the situation we need to empower our minds (and our bodies, mind's home).

Our perspective about how others perceive us are biased by our untamed feeling and emotions. While tackling mind weakness wih mental techniques is quite complex, it's known that body workout can improve the terrain to achieve mental changes.

So some questions:

Are you practicing sports?

Do you meditate or practice yoga?

Do you listen to music? What kind?

Best regards!