Hello scar12346: From my perspective, it would be inappropriate for us to judge whether or not what you are experiencing constitutes a mental illness. It could be... it sounds as though it may be. But it could also be the result of a physical health problem. Given what you wrote, it sounds to me as though the best thing to do is to get yourself checked out both medically & psychologically to determine what it is that is actually going on. It sounds as though what you're experiencing is getting gradually worse. So, really, the sooner you get this attended to the better. By the way, paranoia is a mental health problem. So it's not an "either / or" situation... Please take care...