I've noticed myself trying to start arguments on purpose. I can feel my uneasiness and anger all in one bubble because its almost like I'm fighting myself not to start arguments.

I can't really understand where this want to fight comes from. From me wanting attention or just craving the anger I feel when I argue. I do this mostly with people I'm close to. I want to fight with them but as soon as I initiate the fight, I regret it. I'll cry and make them feel bad. They'll apologize. And the apology gives me a sense of satisfaction. And I'll start it over stupid issues like dishes in the sink or how they make the bed.

Does anyone else do stuff like this?