i truly dont know.

its not like im gonna finish school in 1 year or even a few. yet everyone keeps saying "youre still in school?"

im starting to get really burnt out by it. really bummed out a lot. i just wished i had kept it a secret. i wish i never told anyone i was going. my mom and sister are pushing me to get a job. tbh i have no idea what im going to do with chosen degree that i chose.

its too late though. everyone knows im going. i feel like im stuck in a cycle of not doing well.

im not even doing well emotionally right now or mentally. but i thank god im not suicidal or anything.