Given my history any kind of interaction is welcome. I thought about it and I didnt really intend to develop feelings for these women I just enjoyed talking to them. They're young, okay, but I have a ton of catching up to do and I will always be grateful for whatever attention was given. Believe it or not I was drawing lines - in the back of my head I was thinking these people are too young for any physical attraction. Do I want children, a mortgage, college tuition, changing diapers at this point - NO! I'm not stupid, just lonely. Sometimes I forget how far down the road I am and I'm not going to have a lifelong romance at this point. I am a very dark individual because of my lack of aggressiveness in the love area. Something else l probably don't want to do is go through a long therapeutic process - I've done therapy and it didn't work. Am I going to guarantee that I won't do this again - no. If an attractive woman wants to listen to me than I'm not going to run the other way. I do have acquaintances my own age and to be truthful I don't have any romantic feelings towards them but it could happen. If the term perusing means occassionally sitting down and having a face to face and wanting to buy flowers every once in a while then I'm guilty. What did happen during these encounters was a glimmer of hope - that's more than I've had and although it was fantasy it was something. It's hard but I want these young women to have families and long partnerships. It's hard for me to be a good sport but I know that bowing out is best. At 61 I still don't know what's going on. I've lived alone forever and it might be the best thing. Thanks.