Hello MobiusPsyche: The Skeezyks welcomes you to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. I can relate to allot of what you wrote. I'm in my mid 60's now & I also look back & wonder what my life might have been like if I had received help when I was young. But, of course, I also know that realistically there was no help back when I was young. I have a ruptured disc in my low back that impinges on the sciatic nerve. So I have sciatica down both legs as well... more left than right. I'm not on any med's at this point. They've never helped that much & I can't afford them. Oh, & back when I was employed, I was also in the so-called helping professions...

P.S. Your user name made me wonder if, by some chance, you are a fan of author / educator: Parker J. Palmer... "life on the Mobius strip..."