You said you'll never find someone like him, and I say you don't want someone like him, but a much better and nicer man.

You need to organize your cards first, though. It seems that you throw yourself to the slightest opportunity out of despair. This will always end in bad situations.

You need to reason more, and to do that you need a strong will, which needs an emotional detachment from others, which in turn needs you to love and accept yourself.

Unfortunate fact is that many men are manipulative to satisfy their raging desires, and many innocent women fall to that.

Be well, and be careful next time.