I think when you feel like a zombie or not yourself, then you're not on the right medication which makes many people want to stop them. So that makes sense. Maybe a new pdoc with a new approach can prescribe you meds that stabilize you without that zombie like feeling. It sometimes is a challenge and time consuming to mix the right cocktail, but patience and the willingness to keep going makes the difference. I really hope it all works out for you. I know you've been struggling lately. Please take care. Pm me anytime you need to.