To tell you the truth this is a recent phenomenon - it's happened twice in the past two years. When I'm not tearing my innards out I'm usually okay with myself. In this most recent encounter, I didn't freak out until she actually said she was dating somebody new. I didn't even know she had broken up with her previous love interest. I guess subconsciously I hung around thinking that I might someday have a shot - pretty stupid considering my age. Well I guess I was less important to her than I thought. There was always sort of a safety cushion because I thought she had a boyfriend. I kinda thought the relationship was in trouble because when she talked about him it was usually in a negative manner. I'm seeing myself as more of a father figure now - although I wish I wasn't.