Ciderguy, I am sorry for the sleepless nights and the possibly paranoia. I hope you chose to tell your therapist what was going on, but even more, I hope it ceases. I also see hope in your post, bease it shows reach in toward something....a solution, or a bit of understanding or empathy. I add my caring and concern to that of "kindness", though I wonder if it will be of benefit to you, since I am an unknown here. Perhaps you could get your caregiver to set the thermostat at a more comfortable position, btw, and perhaps knowing that we are rooting for you will help you to get the motivation to microwave a meal.....or perhaps you need more active care, temporarily, if that is an option? Take care.