I wasn't sure whether to start a new thread or revisit this one, but I decided that there's a good deal of valuable information above that I won't have to repeat if I continue and so...

My subject of my IQ came up organically in a conversation with my therapist one day. He passed the information on to my psychiatrist - they work together and share information regularly. It's quite high. My psychiatrist, when he referred me for psych testing, asked for an IQ test to be given. I was uncomfortable with that for the following reason:

The results of the tests I took yesterday are going to my disability hearing. When I was shopping for a disability lawyer, I spoke to three different attorneys. Each one of them said that despite having a very good chance of receiving disability, I had two strikes against me. First, I was too young. Disability judges apparently are more lenient awarding disability to folks who are at least fifty-five. Fifty years old is doable they all agreed, but anything under fifty years old is a very tough sell. I was forty-seven when I applied, I'm fifty now and the hearing is expected some time in September so I've made a bit of progress there. The second strike was that I was too smart. Each of them basically said, that the smarter one is, the more likely it is that the judge will figure that you'll figure out a way to make it work without disability.

So, when I discovered that an IQ test was on the horizon, I told them that unless it was required for diagnostic reasons, I'd prefer not to have my IQ tested at this time. When pressed, I explained why. Long story short - the IQ test was a part of my testing yesterday.

That said, and as I described in my original post, I was very far from my best yesterday. Taking an IQ test when one is in the state I described myself being in yesterday, does not yield results that are an accurate reflection of one's intelligence. But no problem - can't hurt my case, right? I mean, I did my level best under the circumstances and so - no harm, no foul.

Except my psychiatrist and therapist know why I didn't want to take the test in the first place. They have to conclude one of two things: I lied originally, or I manipulated the test by scoring low purposely. Either way, they are going to confront me on my score. Normally, with these two, I am assertive and a strong advocate for myself, but I am pretty much done with them. I have to continue seeing them for a period of time (complicated - lawyers advice and it's good advice) but I'm no longer going to try and work with them. Go in, do my time, go home.

I have, more or less, exactly zero interest in explaining the fiasco that was yesterday to them - it's behind me and I don't want to talk about it with them. That was my plan anyway, but then today I started thinking about it. If I don't tell them about yesterday, then when the results come back I'll either have some explaining to do then - or risk their notes painting me either a liar or as attempting some type of fraud. I really don't want to be portrayed that way to a judge trying to figure out if he can believe me or if I'm trying to game the system.

Suggestions?