I am sorry to hear of such an awful situation that you are in. I pray that things get better for you. Sometimes life can be a real ***** and that's NO ONE'S FAULT. It is my belief that those who experience the most hardships are bound for great spiritual growth and strength because it is mainly in the times that we' fall short that we learn the most. Remember you are a strong and beautiful person, I can see this in you even when I have never met nor have I spoken to you in my life. Just know that when people hate you it is not your problem (God knows it absolutely doesn't make life any easier) and even though it hurts there's no need to take it personally - they are facing problems within their self and for whatever reason you are that reflection they need to confront it. We only react to what we see in others that we dont like in ourselves. Please believe that in terms of relationships, I know exactly what you're going through. I have never had an easy time making friends and I've always felt inferior to others. My romantic relationships weren't any better either. I'm coming to accept that I'm different - that I'm not the only one who's struggled with finding that sense of family\belonging and that for some of us it allows us to better appreciate when the right people come along . They will come to you if you invite them. Ask the Universe for what you want and you shall get it. Ask. Believe. Receive. For your own sake seek help for the negative way you perceive yourself because I can see yoiu might be inviting it on yourself. You are loved and God bless. <3