Its 8:49...I feel horrible,..Today I went to school doing what my T said ,...today is Thursday I'm only gonna think about Thursday. I then tried being a teenager for once. Acting like one is the first step. I saw a pretty girl yesterday I spoke today,..it went horrible,..she judged me from the get go labeling me a geek,......anyway aside from that I was socially crumbling as I saw everyone in socialzing and when I tried and smiled,...it was fake...I know now I"ll never have a lover will I?.....

I got on the bus and began crying no one saw me,...but it was so painful,...listening to my ipod and tears coming and sniffling now and again...I really am close to my last boiling point with life,..I'm tired of life...I'm tired of its hassles...I"m tired of nothing good coming...I'm just TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!