SallyBrown, thanks for your post above. I wonder if you have any advice for me. I think I would like to benefit from therapy and from this attraction to T, but I cannot articulate properly how. For example, I think that I would like to hear him state more precisely how my desire affects him, and how it affects his (therapy) care for me. But I feel he avoids talking about it at all - maybe because he feels that bringing his feelings into things is a bad thing?

I know that it affects how I speak with him. For example I am hesitant to express freely how happy I am with the new person I am seeing, how nice the sex is, etc. for fear of it paining him. I know the thing to do is bring this point up and hope for the best....

I don't know, I guess I wondered if you had any advice for my particular situation about how to best use it in therapy.