I spend as little time with the ex as possible, however I'm living in his home. That is a whole other post in and of itself! I know the situation is unhealthy and adding to my problems. I'm unable to go to church because it is a trigger for me. I cannot do the gym due to my anxiety disorders, and I'm having trouble finding a social group outside the Internet, because I don't know where anything is out here (have to rely on ex for that) and my social anxiety disorder is terrible. I would love to take some classes to keep me and my mind busy but I currently have no income. I have been searching things up online however. I'm trying. And as for the doctors, I think life is trying to mess with me big time! I have a therapist that schedules me in when he can instead of pre booking into the future, so I get to go 3 weeks before I see him again. And I cannot find a psychiatrist or a gp,md any kind of regular doctor that is taking new patients with medicaid. I'm a bundle of grrrrrr. My anxiety disorders prevent me from doing a lot of things, and honestly making phone calls gets harder and harder the more times you are told no. So after a bunch of times I quit and it gets harder to try the next time but I do. .

I honestly wouldn't have posted this question, if I could get in to see someone. Because this is new for me it was kinda freaking me out