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Originally Posted by internalpuppetshow
Glad that worked for you, I'll try it. I can't help but to feel doubtful, though (nothing personal, just by experience). I used to go on walks all the time. I walked about 2-2.5 hours a day for about a few years, once I walked for 3. Got lost in my thoughts, got connected to nature. Didn't do a thing for me. I still felt that people were hiding behind and inside of trees, waiting to jump me. It's stupid, seeing as I was a late teen at the time, but I always thought someone was going to run up and stab me. Or something inhuman and non-animal would attack me.
I'm very, very critical of my own appearance (funny because I don't see anyone else being ugly) and this is one thing that also makes me not want to go out. I'm an eyesore and very aware of this fact, and people do give me looks. Kind of a pain in the neck because I don't know if it's because I'm ugly or they know something. Winter is the only time I'll rarely go out because I can hide this ugly mug behind a scarf. Doesn't do anything for my mood, though, it's likely not fixable at all.
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Going for a walk and getting lost probably cannot work for you unless you could block out the thoughts of people jumping out at you as you do so. Because I was totally submerge in my mind. My subconscious had to have been doing the walking for me, because I don't remember the walk until I turned around to come back. Unless you could block that fear out, you can't get totally lost in your mind. I'm terrified of getting lost, but I told myself I had every intention of getting lost. That was after the "Mindfullness" wasn't working. I could not focus on anything without my mind drifting to something else, but not making much sense, because they just over lapped each other. Idk I think I started unraveling the thoughts to get to why. I'm not saying it will work for you, but it's a suggestion. I didn't go for the walk expecting it to happen. I used to walk all the time also. But I was always focused on something in particular that jumbled around so it wasn't same thing. I'm sorry if that doesn't make sense