Probably over thinking it.
It is hard to figure out who the true friends are. I kind of have buckets I put them in. One guy I really don't expect anything from but I am willing to be friends with him. He has helped me a lot in the past but he always has a selfish angle.
In my experience us guys are not good about staying in touch with each other. Some friends I have that I may not have seen or talked to in 10 years but when we do get together it is like we never missed a beat. Like we have been hanging out everyday for weeks or something. I have kind of taken that as a sign that they are true friends. Some friends male and female there is no doubt in my mind will be there for me even if they don't call or I don't call and make much effort. People have jobs, families, lots of things going on that have nothing to do with me and I try not to take it personally. I get lonely though. I ***** that they haven't called me and they ***** that I haven't called them.
I have heard that if you have two or three very close friends consider yourself lucky. Most are going to be in one of those other buckets.
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The "paradox" is only a conflict between reality and your feeling of what reality "ought to be." -- Richard Feynman
Major Depressive Disorder
Anxiety Disorder with some paranoid delusions thrown in for fun.
Recovering Alcoholic and Addict
Possibly on low end of bi polar spectrum...trying to decide.
Male, 50
Fetzima 80mg
Lamictal 100mg
Remeron 30mg for sleep
Klonopin .5mg twice a day, cutting this back
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