Thank you all very much, I found the NAMI location in my hometown. I will definitely ask around. The feedback had been invaluable to me. I'm seeing a therapist tonight who has had some experience with BD but not enough to call herself an expert. I'm beginning to accept it may take a two hour drive, if it does so be it, I know I have to be willing to go to any length in order to take care of myself at this point.