im afraid i cant quit now. i mean i cant just quit...or stop doing what ive been doing. but ive talked to my dad about this. all he says is "you just need to study harder".

i know im an adult but its just not that easy to quit doing something that youve been doing for a long time. especially havent truly achieved much with it but just a bit.

i really need to think a lot about this. and have many talks with my dad.