Sunny I'm so sorry. I know that you mentioned that short time ago you emailed him and he wrote you back. Would that be a possibility?

Can you turn this into something therapeutic? Of course. Anything can be turned into something therapeutic. Right now, is it really just the phone that you hate? I don't intend to put thoughts in your head or words in your mouth, but I know that when, for example, I have a bad phone call with T or he leaves a crap message, I usually hate him for bit, a lot more than I hate the phone. And then I use it therapeutically as another means of expressing anger and frustration at the perceived abandonment. And then fall back in love. haha... Or at least learn that I can hold several (opposing) feelings for him all at the same time and the whole relationship won't fall apart. Helps me to work on expressing that anger.

Ok, don't mean to go on and on. Take care of yourself.