i told the group today about how but then i immediately regretted it cause everyone was like omg and stuff and i wanted to leave the room.

after group T and i played cards and i took a ptsd test thingy. i told him i had a bad dream last night and he asked what it was but i felt too embarrassed to tell him because which is really weird and uncomfortable and gross and i dont know why im dreaming about these things. he asked me if ive been having flashbacks and i said sometimes but not that many and sometimes it happens when im driving and im not even in the present moment looking at the road because im seeing things thru my mind's eye and not paying attention to the road, so that is dangerous. i told T about how desperate the thoughts make me feel and that i am worried my voices will come back. he said thank god for ur PRNs.

bluh