I don't know how to exactly put this into words, but I'm in a deep inner conflict. I feel horrible about even being in this particular conflict.

I'm on OKCupid and this guy sends me a message. He even talks about an anime I've been meaning to watch. Sounds good, right? Well, I fear I'm being judgmental and hating myself for it. I must be an awful person, right?

The thing is, I'm sometimes attracted to black guys, so it shouldn't be a huge deal, so why am I making it one? Being a white woman, I shouldn't be making it one. I'm such an awful person for even debating this. I know I'm going to get so much hate.