I am bringing this post back to life. It has been a struggle since this last post. I have finally takne the initiative and have started divorce proceedings on my husband. Looking back at the past 23 years of marriage (27 years with this man) I see how I have become slowly depressed over time, frustrated as all get out at times, never supported, always blamed. This has been a very one-sided relationship with me trying and constantly feeling like I am trying to pull him into the marriage while he lives in his own world, his own interests and seeks other women for his own pleasure. This has not been a marriage. I am not sure my children with understand and infact I feel they will see me possibly the one at fault as I ahve been the one effected by my husband's behavior, I have been the one yelling at times, ignoring him at times while he is smug and non-communicative.