I told my hubby from the start over and over I was a mess I told him my past and all the emotional baggage I came with. I pushed him away but he kept coming back. We were friends first and that helped. Actually I didn't fall in love until two years after we married but I knew he was meant to be my lifelong partner even if I never did. Married 8 years now he is my world and I am his. I was misdiagnosed until last November and it's been a hell ride but as he explains it he just enjoys the good times more and loves me harder through the bad. He has seen me through some really tough times and because I am so reluctant to see a pdoc or t I journal but do turn to him to go to doc with me to explain how my meds area working and he discusses things with me when I need it. However I don't bombard him with emotional things he usually has to pull it out of me as I shut down during stress.He never believed in mental illness until he had to accept mine. Through everything we had two children together I have two previously which are his pride and joy also. I stay home and hold down the fort which helps our family dynamic a lot! My two oldest 11 and 14 boys are allowed to give me time outs. Of course to reason. This actually helps them to understand better that they aren't at fault. We take the world on as a team and this is no different. But even with all the support I'm blessed to have it still gets very tough at times. Our family is not the white picket fence it's more pink, green and purple with a touch of black lol way more fun and crazy! The one very important positive thing I've gotten from being bipolar is knowing without doubt that the man that stands beside me loves me unconditionally and I never have to worry that one day he will give up.
It takes a strong patient kind and loving person to stand beside the special people we are. Take your time finding that person! It's definitely worth the wait.

No matter how small, a positive change deserves to be celebrated!