In your posts on this subject, Chummy, I think you've been impressively honest about your feelings and also clearly felt you didn't really have a right to them, at least not in their depth. You know what you can and can't ask of your therapist. I think it's great that you've asserted yourself and expressed those feelings, rather than just trying to suck it up. I think self-assertion's a great thing to practice in a safe space like your therapy. So kudos to you.