Dear t,

I know I say it is perfectly fine and I completely understand when these life situations take you away, especially for several days in a row (and it is all true, I do understand how life happens), but what I can't tell you is how often I get through days knowing that If i can Just hang on, i can 'breath' again when we meet and when that "have to cancel" text comes through. .. my heart crashes and I want to just give up and fall apart. .... last week was one of those weeks where each day was so bad that I just kept myself going by meds and telling myself to wait until tomorrow... buy those texts kept coming. I can never tell you any of this, but I wish you understood how alone I am except for what has been created this last year with our sessions. I try so hard to not be bothersome or needy, but if you had any idea how much those sessions keep me going and that i do trust you enough that I have come to accept that I am not alone with our sessions, I think you might understand how hard these times are. .... or you would leave me for being too needy. Sorry