I have always had fantasies of running away from my life.
Is that BP related?
I don't know but it gives me hope that there is a happy ever after somewhere.

It can be quite hard to accept this lifelong struggle will not end...sure meds can help to a point. But it will always be there. Something to always battle & juggle. Moods & meds...rollercoaster of BS.

The past few days I have been in a nasty, irritable, angry depressed mood.
To those around me, I am keeping it cool. Mainly, just staying silent & avoiding things but inside I am a hurricane of anger. I want to break things, bash things with a baseball bat to release this negative energy. I want to scream & cry, basically have a temper tantrum.
Anyone else have this or these urges?

Yet, I sit here with my poker face & inside an inferno burns.