Ocean Swimmer, that's a really interesting point. Somehow, I can't say no. I can speak about lots of things, be rational and responsible, but when she suggests me 'something', I just can't say no. I will be saying NO to a pleasure, understand?!
But as I've already said, I am really terrible in saying No, cause it gives me huge feelings of guilt, rejection and abandonment (I guess an issue from my parents).
There's a conflict - when we are together in bed, everything's fine. When we see each other during the day, she makes me jealous, pushes my buttons, emotionally triggers... as if she want's me to keep me for herself but through manipulation and hurt.
You're right about the religious thing - she maybe feels the need for freedom from all those Muslim norms for women, and now, in more open society and country, she can enjoy that, but challenging all that maybe gives her a fix.
In short, after 3 years of being single, now I have often a hot sex. This is hard to give up. Even she is not my type, flirts with so many men, she receives a lot of presents, the main thing she can give is her look through clothing and sex (when I see her boots - I don't want to be seen with her in public), no moral principles, no emotional respect... I beg her silently to stop calling me.