I have a good life, can't really complain. All my own choices have led me to where I'm at. But once again I'm becoming so overwhelmed with my situation that I'm starting to shut down. I am so behind on work and home responsibilities I don't know where to start so I do nothing. Frozen. I have 2 special needs children, a husband with ptsd, mental issues, rage addiction and problems with money who just prefers to procrastinate and avoid, and I'm carrying the bulk of major decisions. We can't afford our current rental anymore but a new one wouldn't save much money at all, maybe $100 a month. Can't buy a house because it took him too long to find a job and even though my income is excellent it's self-employment so not considered the same. Really f-ed up if you ask me. We have no one to help, can't even find a reliable sitter for the kids to get a couple hours away. I keep looking back on my life at 3 major choice points wishing I had done things SO differently. I have no one to blame but myself. I'd consider suicide except that would also be too complicated and leave more problems. I couldn't bear to leave such a huge mess for everyone else to deal with. But I'm so tired. [emoji26] Don't know where to start. Feeling frozen.