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Old Feb 22, 2016, 08:26 AM
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Originally Posted by Altered Moment View Post
I have done it many many times. For some reason I minimize things that are bad. I will make sure I am showered and shaved and dressed good for the appointment when I haven't showered in over a week. He will say "your looking really good" when I am not good. Then I can't really remember how I was a week or so ago or I forget what I really wanted to say. It ends up with the Pdoc getting a false impression of how things are. Sometimes we might have a good reason to lie but they can't help us unless they know the truth.

The way I solved this was to keep a daily mood log. At the end of each day I type out how the day was, what was my mood, what did I do, etc. etc.

Then on the day of the appointment I print it, bring it in and let him read it. The log doesn't lie. He gets the true picture this way and it keeps my records much more accurate.
I am motivated to lie and hide the truth this time because of the trip. Usually I give my pdoc journal which I keep record of my thoughts and things. Or drawing I made. This week strangely I didn't write much or draw so I didn't give her. I am scared she will make me go inpatient.

In some way I am glad I got past her. But in some way I do know I am only postponing IP and dragging it out. There is a chance I will slip again, worse this time, within these two weeks. Since yesterday I am getting more anger and self-harm issues, which has subsided for the earlier few days
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Bipolar, BPD, ED
increasing med right now: a downhill slope
Seroquel 200mg
Epilim 300mg
Olanzapine 5mg
Amisulpride 50mg (just started trying this)
Clonazepam 1.5mg
Ativan 1mg (PRN)
Zopiclone (Imovane) 10mg

In psychosis and struggling worse with ED
I skip med because I would rather be psychotic than living in the real sucky world
Who can understand?...

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