In always minimising my adoptive mothers emotional abuse.

I haven't spoken to my mother in 9 yrs. She'd be 89 if still alive.
T says this was how it was always worth my mother, she wasn't there eccentric when she was there.

I say, yeah but, I don't hate her, don't wish nothing bad towards her. I said unyet I hear other people talk of their hatred towards their abusive mother's.

T replied, but she never allowed you to have any feelings, so it's not surprising you don't feel hatred toward her. You were never encourage to have feelings. Feeling of anger toward her would be a luxury for you.