I was kind of like you in that the idea of just sitting there for 20 mins didn't sound all that exciting. Especially just on the floor trying to keep your back straight, hands on knees etc. .. but then I had a prof who explained that the way you do it isn't not all that strict.. it's what you get from is that's the commonality. So I made a few adjustments. I sat right next to a wall so my back would be straight but I could lean on the wall and truly relax, and I put my feet just out in front of my, not crossed as I have a hard time sitting like that for long periods of time, and my hands just relaxed however I feel like doing it at the time. And of course the first day start with 2 maybe 3 minutes and work your way up to 20 or 30. After about the 10th day I was sitting for 45 minutes completely in the zone.. and the time went by so quickly. Felt like i was only there for 5 minutes.

As well with your thoughts, I always thought to meditate properly you had to have no thoughts. Just a completely clear mind. Once I learned this is not true and its okay to let your mind wander, but as soon as you realize that's what you're doing.. bring your attention back to your breathing or a simple chant or saying etc the most common being "om". Another suggestion was to light a candle and focus on the flame ( yes you CAN mditate with your eye OPEN). I love doing that, it's just like sitting in front of a campfire.. so relaxing.

You wont see benefits right away either. . Took me a good week of doing it everyday before I really started looking foreward to my mediation sessions. There are a ton of apps for beginners using guided meditation if you have a hard time focusing. Sometimes I still use one if if having a hard time getting into the grove of it. Even just a noise app where you can listen to birds chirping or a waterfall etc.