Thanks for your reply. I'm going to bring the letter to my next session - I spent a lot of time writing it and there are a lot of important things in it that I need to talk about.

I'm still feeling inappropriately angry towards T and I kind of don't want to see her again but I kind of do at the same time. I've never been diagnosed with it but I am becoming very suspicious that I have borderline personality disorder and these feelings in having towards T are confirming it. I have written about this in my letter but I'm afraid that when I talk to T about it she won't want to work with me anymore.