Being at work is so hard today. I want to cry all the time. I wish I could just shut my office door and hide behind it all day, but I don't have time. There's so much to do, I have only little half-hour pieces of time between appointments the rest of the day. I want that to mean the rest of the day will go fast, but I just hate it. I hate being here right now, I hate feel like I'm so lost. I want to take some time off work, but I don't really have a chance to for another month, and I am planning on taking a day or two off then. But it's so far away, it's hard to see much hope in that.