Last week, my therapist told me that "creepy" was another word for no boundaries. It struck me as totally profound.

The reason that you feel this is "creepy" is because you are breaking some boundaries. Rifling through the doors in the dark is the sneaky, surreptitious thing that you feel you have to do, but you're actually doing some kind of Robin Hood thing Talking about the "score" of the top-drawer products makes this very obvious to me.

Can you write a note about doing this, and post it somehow, so that if you are "caught" its not a big deal? Can you keep the lights on? This is causing you stress because you are violating your own boundaries for proper behavior and that is never a good deal in the long run.

Deal with this up front, in the light of day. that's my opinion and just one person's opinion anyway.

IMHO