I have been battling depression for over a year. I feel like everyone hates me, is thinking bad about me, and ect. I had a lot of friends before this. I now have none. They are not savable at this point. I would be really mean to them and name call. I don't mean it. I don't. I apologize but it happens. So they all told me they are done. It hurts more because I am doing this to myself. I lost a job to this. I am in college and I miss classes to this. I lost my friends to this. My family backed away to this. I wish I had someone who cared enough to stay. But I also cant blame them. Idk what to do. Idk what the point is. Honestly. I RUINED MY LIFE. ME. I DID. I don't know how to make myself ever be okay again. This sucks. Big time. I have been on meds for 3 weeks with no difference. I want to be happy. But maybe its too late.