If I can manage to pretty much get over bipolar without shrinks, I don't see what good they would do for trauma issues and for "it's complicated".

I know you are trying to help, but I just need something out of mainstream to deal with this. Maybe if there were a really good therapist, more of a counselor... that might help. I don't feel like wasting time trying to dig through those that would give me bumper sticker advice or even look down at me.