You were right. The hardest part is being patient. Every time I tell myself to just relax and see how things play out I get freaked out because I don't really know. I don't know why I'm so obsessed with knowing what's going on with me 100 percent, but I am. It consumes a large part of my day. I feel like I can't fully move on until I know for sure. I know it's stupid, and I'm hoping that medication may help me to stop obsessing. I know my ultimate goal is to get better no matter what the illness is.