I think I ignored my intuition with my ex-T too. It's nearly a year since I stopped seeing her. I would like to talk to her about my therapy with her and for her to understand, but I believe that she would never get it. I think I have to just live with it and let it go. My new T (not so new now), really gets me and my therapy with her is on a completely different level to the rubbish I had with my ex-T. Perhaps it is a sad thing for my ex-T that she is not able to get the satisfaction as a therapist that my new T must surely feel from what she is able to do.