I'm in the same boat kinda. My trauma isn't regular trauma either. And the trauma work I've done just made it worse. What has helped me is grounding techniques and distress tolerance skills through dbt. Music has also really helped.

I really admire all the activism you've done and how you're politically active. I really admire that venus. Hang in there. If you go to the ptsd forum they have a page on grounding technique. And just look up dbt distress tolerance skills. I hope I was of some help.