Hi PieceofMe,

I'm so sorry you have such negative people in your life right now
And keeping on calling you a loser........well that sounds more like bullying to me.........and in which case that highlights THEIR weaknesses NOT yours
And God.......can't really comment there........but I CAN say that regardless of abilities or "disabilities" then everyone is going to have something/s special about them. It's "just" maybe you're finding it hard to see them in yourself with such negativity from others and also with the way you're feeling
And as for not doing things "right"..........I'm thinking the way you're feeling, and the worry and uncertainty you mentioned are making it hard for you to be as focused as you could be..........and it's completely understandable if you have got some things "wrong". That in NO WAY makes you a loser!!!
But you know what as well..........feeling "down", worry and uncertainty can blind you to A LOT of the things you actually do "right" too. with the focus on "wrong" things being magnified 1001%.
And I'm thinking with some more real support, and sounds like you haven't had much/if any of that IRL, maybe you can gradually be feeling a bit (or a lot!!) better than you are now..........
So, real kudos to you on posting, and please don't stop reaching out

Alison

P.S. The bit about no-one caring.........clearly convalescence cares in their reply.......and so do I , you're not on your own on PC