So pissed off right now. I work with clients who are mostly mandated to attend, so I get that it sucks for some of them. But then there are the ones who make it worse for themselves. This client should be long done with seeing me, but he is still only halfway done because he refuses to show up or do his homework. It's like a page of short answers, how can that be difficult? But because he is pushing against things, he's still mandated to attend and do his homework. So I got this gem of a response today. He finished his homework from the last 3 sessions, already pissed off, and decided to call me fat and useless in one of his answers. Like I wasn't going to see it? Or he wanted me to flip out on him right there in my office. I know I can't take it personal, but it hurts. I try, and I want to help. This kid is younger than me and has already spent half his life in prison. But it's all my fault anyway. It'll probably be my fault when he goes back to prison, I'm not doing enough to help him change now. I just don't know why it has to be my fault when I do so much to try and help.

So glad my 6:00 cancelled. I just want to fall apart. I am falling apart.