I am sure I am not the only one who does this.... Any of those of you out there with a significant stubborn streak like myself?? How do you deal??

I know going to my T is good for me but at the same time i want to scream at her to leave me alone and that im fine im not sick. I get pissed off at think she doesnt believe me or understands; Even though I have not have had any major issues with her. I have problems with paranoia and real recently got extremely convinced she told everyone at my job about my problems even though i know its not true.

While I agree with her that i have a problem; i also reject all her ideas as well as the psychiatrist's diagnosises. I am notorious for leaving therapy periods of time refuting that I am not sick and then coming back like a young puppy crying for it's mother usually in the form of a email and an appointment (I am also notorious for going off medication and do not have a solid diagnosis probably somewhat to blame on this). Its sickening and embarrassing to me.

I apologize and hope that my therapist is patient with me and i guess she is.
I dont know where I was going with this post but im sure there are those who can relate?