hey, ever since I was young Ive had problems sleeping\
I would get terrible nightmares that would fortell misfortune and death
they were like full on unconcious bad lsd trips, they are aweful when I get them
usually after I wake from one I would be in between conciousness
trying to figure them out but that just made it worse,
its very hard to forget them its like they are scarred into my brain
I would panic going to sleep, even though I would actively prolong the dream
while lucid to get more info to translate/find meaning to
ever since I first went to hospital it got worse, usually alot of
False awakenings, Sleep paralysis and lucid dreaming all rolled into one
etc; including Incubus and succubus experiences
It got me paranoid and almost angry, I thought I might of been raped or something while on heavy medication or something unconcious and
it annoys and frustrates me
usually I normally have a hard time getting to sleep because I would
go back mentally assessing my day and if I didn't do anything positive
or enough I would stew and ruminate on it, or stuff I could of done differently
anyways Ive had this for soo long, prolonging going to sleep because
I hate being in a semi schizophrenic dream state that makes me doubt alot of things and reality even
I haven't got it soo badly lately, but I was looking for and advice or help with sleeping mainly getting to sleep,
meditation has helped in the past before and reiki is good too
my mind isn't so packed with an overload of thoughts but it just feels like
constantly through the day I would overwork my mind trying to get **** done
and Id beat myself up because I don't think Ive done enough
anyways I was wondering what causes this too and will it get better over time
and me concentrating on discipline and strength exercises like being active, outgoing and using my energy in a good way.
thoughts?
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