I am 15. I have been dealing with depression for 3 almost 4 years. My mom doesnt know, my family doesnt know. My friends try to help me but im a lost cause. I cut, smoke, pop pills, drink. I try to forget everything. Been moving my whole like, don't know how to settle down. Been hurt by the ones i love the most. So im really scared im going to get hurt again. I dont trust myself. And for some reason i can never seem to be in a relationship longer than two months. I dont know what to do or how to fix it.